Sunday, January 24, 2010

room for us all

I am a submissive woman who needs to be dominated, and for a long time, I thought I was a freak. I thought I was alone. I didn't understand what I felt or why I felt it.  I suffered in silence and built a wall around my true self, hating what I thought was the "monster" within.  It took me a long time, and it wasn't until I was well into my adulthood that I dared share my true self with another.

And do you know what I found out?

I am not a monster, not even close, and I am not a freak, and the greatest realization of all was that I am not alone. In fact there were many many people like me, that felt the way I did, that also were afraid to face and share their feelings.

Through the blessed anonymity of the Internet, I was able to reach out to other like-minded folk and connect, and have made life long friends as a result. We can express who we are in the comfort of each others virtual arms and the acceptance and validation we have experienced has made us whole. There is no need to bury that part of ourselves anymore and we are better people in our lives.

I know the Internet has proven detrimental to some, and often to those who don't know how to properly use it or respect it, and it must be respected.

Connection is a gift. I am always careful never to do anything ever that might hinder this gift for another, and I am sad when I see people use the Internet to do exactly that. To hinder or hurt those who have chosen to interact anonymously by publishing their personal information in an effort to"out" them.

I am not going to go into detail about what I had seen or lead anyone to this place, because I think it is better left alone to perhaps just go away, but I think it's important that we remember to take care of each other in this world.

Doing things to harm each other will only bring back the isolation that hurt so many for so long. There is room for us all, and all of us deserve the gift of connection and respect.

7 comments:

Jayne's Master said...

You certainly are not alone having the need to be submissive.. I have just started blogging about it myself. Like your blog.
Jayne.

Irony's Sub said...

Sisters in Submission - I started my own blog after I realized that I, too, am submissive and had been denying my feelings for years. I also felt like I was a freak. I felt sick that I wanted the things that I crave. It is odd now submitting control to someone is so freeing! I hate I waited so long, but I am in the perfect situation for me. It's not always easy, but I am finding people like yourself who are going through the same thing and feelings.

Doesn't it feel great?!!!

明白的一切 said...

^^ 謝謝你的分享,祝你生活永遠多彩多姿!........................................

Lilli x said...

This is the very first blog i have ever read from another submissive...
i cant tell you how good it feels!
like many others, it seems, i denied myself for years, fearing i was depraved in some way and only very recently started my own blog journalling my 'disovery'...
as lol ridiculous as this may sound, i feel reborn!

betty kiss said...

I am usually a very in control and assertive woman, and yet uncovering the submissive side of me has probably been one of the most profound things I have ever done. And I have only just started.

I love the blog and would love to see more.

www.esclaves.org said...

Wise and beautiful image (there is a room for all)
I really appreciate your blog.
EP

xlilywestx@live.co.uk said...

hello i wasent sure where to comment so im sorry if this is the wrong place. my boyfriend and me are part time sub+dom but he want to do a role switch so im the dom and i happy doing that cuz it make him happy he what me to do domestic training with u but i dont know what that is can u help me by telling me what it is an give me some tip about rules and stuff please i beg u i dont wanna let him down please email u back if u want to my email in my name bit
PLEASE HELP ME