Friday, May 23, 2008

I'm glad....

I'm glad you ended it, although it hurt my ego. I tried to end it before, (remember?) but you weren't ready to accept it, even though you did everything to push me away. So, you needed to pull me back and play out your drama to finally let me go. I knew it all along, because I knew what I was capable of doing and not doing and told you this several times. But you weren't ready to hear me, and now you have accepted that I can never be with you. The truth is, if I loved you enough, I would have been with you already. You weren't acting worthy of the sacrifice I was about to make. It was all just about physicality with you, and I need more. You hurt my ego, it sucks to be dumped, but I knew you would never leave me alone unless you did the dumping. I'm not going to write to you, so if you want to write to me, then so be it. But this is all I have to say on the matter and I chose to do it here. I can't be honest with you, you don't allow honesty in your world, and I don't want to be in your world any more...

good bye!

3 comments:

Odoriko said...

I hope you are alright Dragonfly... I'm always here for you if you need to talk, dear one.

xxoxx

selkie said...

sweetie - your insight is right on ... but hope it doesn't sting too much.
selkie

Pet's Sir said...

Dragonfly,

Your last 2 posts were incredibly raw and brave. They have given me pause.

I admire your honesty and forthrightness about what happened and how unfortunately, even with your eyes wide open, you were still drawn into it - like the moth to the flame - and consumed by it. I am so sorry that you were subjected to such unwarranted pain. I only hope that you heal well.